I have let my writing and vlogging go as the weather got warmer, then I had a death of a friend.
It’s amazing what grief does to us. It can halt us like stone, or make us speed up life.
What do you do?
I make myself busy so I don’t have to feel. Then when I stop, the flood gates start to creek open.
I decided to talk with a therapist about it because one of the things I’ve learned about grief is that it can open old unresolved grief from past losses in life. If we don’t process past grief, it just sits somewhere in the body until something triggers it. It also makes you look at your own mortality, which sent me into a frenzy at times.
It can come out in some strange, unpleasant ways let me tell ya!
I either would snap at my husband or daughter, and/or my anxiety would be so high I would feel paralyzed.
My therapist reminded me that we need to create space for it, so it can easily flow out. Sounds simple!
It’s not. But the more we give it space and let it flow, all will be well.
So what have I been doing?
1) Practicing yoga more to slow the hell down!
2) Taking deep breaths when I feel a wave coming.
3) Talking about it! I share the fun experiences I had with the person.
Death is apart of lift and I want to be ok with it. I also don’t want to live in fear all the time.
So live life big and the best way possible. Don’t let the little shit get to you.