I’m usually adaptive to change, but I’m noticing as I get older and now a momma, it’s challenging.
I try so hard to just roll with it, but have moments when I can’t.
Then I hide it from the world for fear of being seen as weak and a failure, instead of just saying, “hey this sucks”, or “hey I could use some help right now, any suggestions before I curl up into a ball of snot, sweat and tears?”
We recently bought a house, which is both exciting and scary. We absolutely love it and it’s perfect for us, so yay!
I’m also prepping for an exam to become a Certified Personal Trainer; work fulltime; run a side biz; teach fitness once a week; a wife and mother. Let’s just say my plate isn’t full, it’s over-full (if that’s a word).
I’m in a place where I feel like my life is always going to be this way. That I’m never going to be able to do just my one passion in life: helping people with their health and fitness so they can feel more confident, strong and better. Of course, that’s what my mind tells me not my heart. My heart tells me to keep going because this what you’re meant to do. Help people help themselves, the way you found ways to help yourself.
Sure I know “who” I’m helping, which is good to know. I have goals and action steps. I know what I’m striving for.
It’s the periodic funks. I have a choice to either let them take over me or me take over them. It’s being clear on where I’m putting my energy and what’s priority. Spending time with my daughter and husband is key, which is a reason why I’m working to be more creative with my career. To have flexibility with my time.
So on that note, I want to create more compassion for myself because beating myself up and being hard on myself whenever there’s a setback isn’t going to do shit. It’s a waste of energy. I need my energy!
My self-compassion plan:
-Meditate daily for at least 5 minutes
-Take a bath 2-3 times a week
-Go to a yoga class once a week